When an adult has had a difficult or "crappy" childhood and may not be fully aware of its impact, they might experience a range of symptoms that can vary from person to person. It's important to note that these symptoms can also be present for individuals who have had a challenging childhood but are not limited to that specific group. Here are some common symptoms that adults with a difficult childhood might experience:

1. Low self-esteem: They may struggle with feelings of worthlessness, self-doubt, and a lack of confidence in themselves and their abilities.

2. Emotional difficulties: They may have trouble managing and expressing their emotions, experiencing intense mood swings, or feeling overwhelmed by certain emotions.

3. Trust issues: They might find it challenging to trust others due to past experiences of betrayal, neglect, or abuse during their childhood.

4. Relationship difficulties: They may struggle with forming and maintaining healthy relationships, having difficulties with intimacy, or experiencing fear of abandonment.

5. Self-destructive behaviors: They might engage in self-destructive behaviors such as substance abuse, excessive risk-taking, self-harm, or unhealthy coping mechanisms to deal with unresolved emotions or trauma.

6. Chronic stress or anxiety: They may experience persistent feelings of anxiety, stress, or hypervigilance as a result of past experiences and an uncertain or unsafe childhood environment.

7. Depression: They may struggle with depression, feeling sadness, hopelessness, or a lack of interest in activities they once enjoyed.

8. Difficulty setting boundaries: They may have challenges establishing and enforcing personal boundaries, often allowing others to take advantage of them or neglecting their own needs.

9. Trouble regulating emotions: They may have difficulty regulating their emotions, experiencing heightened reactivity or emotional outbursts in response to triggers.

10. Flashbacks or intrusive memories: They may experience intrusive memories, flashbacks, or nightmares related to past traumatic experiences.

It's important to remember that everyone's experiences and responses are unique, and these symptoms may manifest differently in different individuals. If you suspect that your difficult childhood is impacting your well-being, seeking support from a mental health professional can be beneficial in understanding and addressing these challenges.

If you or your partner are going through any of the symptoms mentioned, please know that I'm here to help. I specialize in providing support and guidance to individuals and couples in these situations. Don't feel like you have to go through this alone - reach out to me today and let's work through it together.